As i see it, your problem isn't your circumstance.
I stay at home for most of my time, both because of limited social life and school study, so i think i can relate with your situation at least in some extent. But the key here is, your circumstance is irrelevant.
What is chiefly important is your motivation for doing this; if your motivation is strong enough, you will make it regardless of what situations you find yourself in( you can't expect things to always go your way). If your motivation is weak, you will fail however hard you think you try, no matter what contingent measures you take.
The thing is, people often think they act contrary to their will, doing something while telling themselves they shouldn't be doing it. But that's just untrue.
People always do what they truly, deeply and more-or-less consciously want to do; the problem is we often fail to properly examine ourselves and our desires, often for a sense of self-pity, guilt or denial( these are only examples of course), and we end up failing to really understand ourselves.
We think we should be doing something, but we don't feel it.
And that's the problem. We aren't only rational beings, often we act because of motives which lack a directly rational explanation, or of which we just can't see the real motive right now.
The key is understanding yourself and what you really want, and through that understanding changing the way you feel, think and consequently live to achieve what you want.
If you fail to change, it just means you didn't really want it; you kind-of wanted it, since you still had doubts which weakened your resolve.
When we fail, it's because we lose sight of our objectives, not because the urge was too strong. There's always a moment when we can choose to go along the path of least resistance and give up, or endure. And you will only choose to endure if you have sufficient motivation for doing so.
That's why there's no point in beating oneself up, or searching excuses : it's pointless, we failed because we stopped wanting it strongly enough, we just have to be honest with ourselves and refining our resolve until we'll be resistant enough not to give in anymore.
Also, if you find yourself really wanting( consciously) to stop this, then go along with it; but if you find that in reality you have doubts about whether what you are doing is right or wrong( for you), then don't bother trying. I can assure you that you won't make it.
I would add that what i said is equally valid in a strictly biological sense : the brain is effectively trying to stop your rational self from succeeding in this commitment, and it acts in a subtle yet persistent way in your subconscious; as you learn recognising its attempts to bring you back to your old behaviours, it gets easier and easier, and you'll eventually be able to shrug it off and laugh at it.
You see, in the end it's all about what you truly want, that's why it's pointless to occupy yourself with "alternative activities"; if you want to do that, and not other activities, you will do that.
Even if you were to be able to make yourself permanently occupied with activities which prevent you from indulging in the behaviour, but you still wanted to do it, you'd just be torturing yourself; and in the end, you would not be able to keep it up and you would fail again.
I stay at home for most of my time, both because of limited social life and school study, so i think i can relate with your situation at least in some extent. But the key here is, your circumstance is irrelevant.
What is chiefly important is your motivation for doing this; if your motivation is strong enough, you will make it regardless of what situations you find yourself in( you can't expect things to always go your way). If your motivation is weak, you will fail however hard you think you try, no matter what contingent measures you take.
The thing is, people often think they act contrary to their will, doing something while telling themselves they shouldn't be doing it. But that's just untrue.
People always do what they truly, deeply and more-or-less consciously want to do; the problem is we often fail to properly examine ourselves and our desires, often for a sense of self-pity, guilt or denial( these are only examples of course), and we end up failing to really understand ourselves.
We think we should be doing something, but we don't feel it.
And that's the problem. We aren't only rational beings, often we act because of motives which lack a directly rational explanation, or of which we just can't see the real motive right now.
The key is understanding yourself and what you really want, and through that understanding changing the way you feel, think and consequently live to achieve what you want.
If you fail to change, it just means you didn't really want it; you kind-of wanted it, since you still had doubts which weakened your resolve.
When we fail, it's because we lose sight of our objectives, not because the urge was too strong. There's always a moment when we can choose to go along the path of least resistance and give up, or endure. And you will only choose to endure if you have sufficient motivation for doing so.
That's why there's no point in beating oneself up, or searching excuses : it's pointless, we failed because we stopped wanting it strongly enough, we just have to be honest with ourselves and refining our resolve until we'll be resistant enough not to give in anymore.
Also, if you find yourself really wanting( consciously) to stop this, then go along with it; but if you find that in reality you have doubts about whether what you are doing is right or wrong( for you), then don't bother trying. I can assure you that you won't make it.
I would add that what i said is equally valid in a strictly biological sense : the brain is effectively trying to stop your rational self from succeeding in this commitment, and it acts in a subtle yet persistent way in your subconscious; as you learn recognising its attempts to bring you back to your old behaviours, it gets easier and easier, and you'll eventually be able to shrug it off and laugh at it.
You see, in the end it's all about what you truly want, that's why it's pointless to occupy yourself with "alternative activities"; if you want to do that, and not other activities, you will do that.
Even if you were to be able to make yourself permanently occupied with activities which prevent you from indulging in the behaviour, but you still wanted to do it, you'd just be torturing yourself; and in the end, you would not be able to keep it up and you would fail again.
